Little boy E

There's a little boy at the park an his name is Eli he's about Ella's age and I'm filled with thoughts of my little lost one. Not Noel. But my second baby E. Who would he be. Would he be as spunky as Ella? Would he love Noah as much as Ella does? How different would that little boy be? I will never know. God has his plan and His plan is perfect. My love for the children I have isn't wavering but I'm filled with wonder. And what it's. For those that know Ella was a twin. And I lost the other baby. Eli was to be his name. I was 12 weeks pregnant when his little heart just stopped and he stopped progressing. I delivered Ella at one week shy of being 7 months pregnant. And God blessed her birth immeasurable, I could never repay the debt of gratitude I owe to The Lord for both my miraculous births. I recently learned that Ella is what is called a "rainbow" baby a live birth after a loss. But she also had a womb mate what was he? I will never forget either child. I love both in heaven. And I'm so gracious that  I have my n and e here! (Just realized that I have a N and E on earth and in heaven)   There is also a child here who's parents are not paying attention to. Turns out it's his sister she is letting him live with her until his parents get better (his words). And I'm just sad I want to scoop this child up and take him home with me!